Do you ever get the feeling...

...of just wanting to get in your car and driving away as quickly as possible and not stopping?

Wouldn't care where I was going. Would I go back? Might have this niggling of who and what I was leaving behind, kinda like the death thing, would be interesting to see the results.

A word to the wise...

...don't use 'ticketweb' to buy any event tickets...

A different Sunday

Lets just say, even tho what I went to do didn't happen,I had one of the best times out ever. The more I visit London, the more stronger the need to keep going back. Great, sounding like some guy from the sticks just discovering 'the big city'...to a point I suppose it's true.

Maybe because it wasn't all planned, we just went with the flow, knowing vaguely where to go but just hopping from place to place. Managed, even with his strong accent, to hold a coversation with a random (kinda big for me). Being told at 24 I was still a baby, while him being 34, and that he felt old and was over the hill, was one of the odder moments.

Didn't set out too but seemed to do all the places that I knew about. Came out of one, walked on a bit and spotted another. Felt like I wanted to do them just to say I had been there. If I didn't like them then no need to go back.

Damn The Village for making good cocktails...5?...maybe 6?...dunno? Interesting pricing system aswell...

Then the G.A.Y bar. For me this was full of all the typical stereotypes, nothing against it/them, just an observation. Most of the other places were less so. Saying that, this was the best place of the night. Well I know the club so I guess the bar is just a samller version. Not sure if it is in the mind but it's these types of places that I feel most at ease and relaxed. Did feel a bit cautious at first, feelin people were looking and being judgmental, but that soon past. Was just another 'me' moment.

Before I knew it, it was time to go. Or so I thought. Outta the blue I get grabbed and danced with! Not happened in a while, possibly the alcohol that seemed to be carrying him along may have had something to do with it. Was a good ending. Again prob not a big thing, but to me it was.

Oh well, didn't really wanna right an account of the day. Not included all so I suppose I've not. Just wanted to blog about a good time I suppose. Definately need to do it more.

Blogging

Looking at this blog I'm definately not posting as often as I was when I started. Often it maybe because I don't get the chance I need to sit and think about typing, sometimes I forget, but mostly I'm putting it down to the fact that it was becoming tedious.

Not saying this blog is but more the stuff I was posting about. Now I could possibly not be running here to moan, bitch and worry as much and either dealing with or just letting some of the stuff go. It's not worth it any more.

There is also often that fact that I think about who want's to actually sit down and read about the trivual parts of my life? Looking at stuff, that at the time for me seemed important, but now seems stupid and nothing a good slap wouldn't/won't sort.

I know people have the choice of clicking forward, but that defeats part of the blog, a chance to see others thoughts from all over. Often said it's a place just for my thoughts and don't care if it read or not. Obviously a part of me does or I would just write it on my computer and keep it there, stored away for no one to see. And there wouldn't be a counter...

Not really sure where this post is going. I suppose I'm saying I'm trying to stop the mundane posts and trying to make more of an interesting read. In a way that could be taken that I think I'm boring and trying to make myself sound better.

Just making an observation I suppose. Maybe it shows a move forward? Maybe not?

Soul mate

“There is no such thing as the perfect soul mate. If you meet some one and you think they are perfect, you better run as fast as you can in the other direction. ‘cos your soul mate is the person that pushes all your buttons, pisses you off on a regular basis and makes you face your shit.”

That said surely the flip-side makes it good? You have some one to be with. A person to share your life and experiences with. They know what you are like, they know how you think, how you feel.

Or is that a bad thing?

Is it healthy spending more time with just one person than others? To have some one knowing you inside out? I suppose that's taking it to the extreme. It means you have to explain yourself less but then takes away the surprises and have less to find out about each other. I suppose eventually spending enough time with anyone will have that end result.

Having a person around that "pushes all your buttons, pisses you off on a regular basis and makes you face your shit" is in some ways good. It keeps you 'alive', gives you challenges and helps you grow as a person. Obviously taking it too far can have a negative effect on you.

So is it good or bad to find that one person/soul mate? I have no idea. Think I'm pretty free with stuff anyway so not many surprises with me either way, and most say I'm easy to read. I would like to but then, for me, is it wanting what I can't seem to find at the moment? Not so sure. Love being around others but whan it ocassionally does get too much I do like to sink into the background or just have some alone time.

Guess I'll never know until it finally happens.