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Not put anything here for a bit. Don't wanna keep putting negative stuff, but then when I'm happy don't usually sit here and think to much.

Just wish I was more understood and friends maybe understood me more. Maybe if I talked more it would help, but feel that none fully undersrtand what I'm going through and can't see it from my side. I don't know where to go, who to turn to or what to do anymore. Getting fed-up and feel I need to be around people who would understand amd have been or are going through what I am. I've tried looking for groups and stuff to do but it all seems to be at the wrong times, wrong age, a bit seedy or secret. Just don't know. Really getting me down and taking it out on the wrong people, as usual!

Another thing is that people always say I need to talk more, reveal more of myself and my feelings. I try, but never really succeed. Just feel that although they do this they are never really telling me things and sometimes are being just as bad. I think helping friends helps me to be more realaxed and trustful. No idea?

Do I?....Don't I?

Do I go, don't I go. Got nothing to loose, but am I ready to take that step? Need others around me but they are not always gonna be there. Gonna have to do some thing at some point on my own. This is crazy. NEED MORE CONFIDENCE! NEED A LIFE! Get a grip, it aint tricky. Just walk in. It'll be fine. Pro won't. Prob just sit here, alone in my room watching it all go by. Wasting what little time I have on this rock.

Another thing from today's Times - 'The union(jack (- why change it?)) flag on the Times Square ticker in New York in tribute to London bomb victims is feflected in raindrops on a car windscreen.' 

Born gay or made gay: which camp am I in? -Times Online

Born gay or made gay: which camp are you in? - Times 2 - Times Online

Saw this in The Times today. Thought it was a very interesting article looking at whether you are born gay of it is to do with your upbringing. Kinda helped me to understand things a little more.