Good/bad?...they decide

I try to be a good mate, sometimes it's hard to have a happy medium, often feel I'm being too clingy and sometimes feel I'm being too distant. Half the time it's just me being my usual worryin, paranoid self. Just wish people could be more truthful...just tell me either way. Maybe they do and I just don't see it? Yeah I may be offened for a bit but I'll soon get over it. At least then I'll know, not necessarily change myself for them but try and do it less or calm it down a bit.

Think most of the time I'm ok. Try and be there if needed, give advice and try and say what I'm thinking and feeling. The last part often is my downfall. Prob more how I say it rather than the words I use. Need to learn to have more tact, be less abrupt. Positivity? That's my nature I'm afraid, don't mean it, just how it comes out. Think more and use words more more wisely and carefully.

Dunno if all this seems like alot of self doubting. Don't think it is, just stuff I know, figured and always thinking through. Mood still pretty medium, so more up than it was...just still sorting it all out...