This again

It's stupid, I say I wanna get out and meet people, am given the chance and then say I'm not sure and try and back out. Poss not in much of a partying mood for summin like it at the mo, poss cos I know what it may be like.

Just wanna have a few drinks and relax but know I'm gonna be on edge for most of it. Really don't wanna offend or be seen as the 'boring' one which I know I can partly be sometimes. Can hear people saying go for it, but is there any point if I'm not gonna be 100%?

Well the alternative is staying here. Won't be that bad and have a bit of 'me' time and sort some stuff...maybe...boring I know...but it's the weekend.