Missed Opportunities

Just started to think about all the missed opportunities I have had to say what i really need to. I don't know if I haven't because i'm afraid of what might be said back or that what I have to say is of real no importance. Possibly a mixture of both. Sometimes I really have to force myself to say it, other times it just just flows out and other times I just don't see the point. I'm thinking how different some situations might have been or how different things would be and how I feel if I had just opened my mouth. Some can still be said and for some it is too late and I may never know. I also think that these people are my friends, surely they can listen to and take what I have to say.....still nothing comes out. I'm probably better than I was and say more than I did before, but it's still not enough. Sometimes it gets me really unhappy and down, knowing I have something to say and no one knowing what it is. I feel stupid for not being able to say it and not being able to face what the reaction might be to it or me.