Same shit...

I thought a break would do me good. I thought it would give me a chance to get away from it all and a chance to see it's not all that bad. I was wrong. Still all the the same. Here I am with the same feelings and thoughts, some stonger than before. Was looking for a miracle really I suppose. Just never happy I guess. Always wanting things to be different and not content with the stuff that comes my way.

The one big issue I don't think will ever be resolved. Can't do much or it will all become complicated and make things worse than they are. It's difficult to discuss, there is a huge trust thing which I know will be broken one way or another. Gonna have to ride it out and see where it takes me. Prob on my own for this one.

I often wish I wasn't me. Not so much my personality but just not to worry or feel the things I do would be great for a bit. Just to be able to get on with things. Poss not a bad as I was, or at least show it less than I did. But then is that right? Not really showing my true self that way. But does anybody?