All me again

Was leaving this til morning but can’t relax and sleep so hear goes...prob drunken ramblings but what I wanna say at the moment...

Jealousy is a strange and crap thing. You don’t want it too but it rears it’s ugly, green, monstrous head and BAM! It’s got u.

Fck knows why I'm bothered? I really shouldn't. For some reason, deep down it does. I didn’t want too/don’t need to make and issue of it. Spose this whole post is tho. It’s me with the problem; I don’t need to say anything. Hopefully didn't/not put a dampner on a good time

I tried to keep it in and I think I managed too as far as I know. Made a tit of myself once but I’ll live...think friendships are safe? How long before that goes bam? Probably better discussed...but no worse than some sleazes...? Know I’m difficult sometimes.

Think I'm in that place again. Trying not to be, but difficult sometimes. Def trying not to show it. Hey we live and we learn.