Loop

Why do I never blog when I'm feeling happier?

Feel a bit outta the loop of things. No real reason why I am or should be. Just been feeling a little on the outside the more I've gone thru this week. A little of the old pick-up, put down.

I've tried to take control of a few things but they are not really progressing how I had thought or planned. I thought I was getting somewhere but seem to be slipping back to how I and it was. maybe it and I never really went anywhere and it was all just an illusion?

I've got some ideas but not sure if it is really gonna work or make me feel better in the long run. As for being outta the loop? Think I may have to admit to myself that stuff and people change so stop hanging on to what was and just make the most of what is.

Sometimes whish I could go onto one of those life makeover shows and have everything as it 'should' be. But then would I have alife that wasn't really mine or would it be the life I think I want?