How long?

Was lying there thinking about how long I've got until I finally snap. You see and hear about these peole who one just think 'fuck it' and go off on some made one. Once again my life is filled with aload of shit going off. My job, my friends, my lack of love life, me! All very well to keep saying move on, but where? How? What?

I came close to breaking down and booing twice at work last week. That's how bad it is and how shit I feel. Tried to block it all out on Friday, but I knew that the answer was definately not at the bottom of a few Stell glasses! Just made me feel and think worse. Think I need help. SHIT!